My mother always said, "If you can't say anything funny, don't say anything at all..."
I've tried not to bore anyone with all of my seriousness, but not writing for me is the equivalent of closing myself in a closet until I feel better.
My dad will have his prostate removed in the morning. My mother is 76 and last time he had surgery, she needed medical attention because she forgot to take care of herself. She's alone and I can't get there.
My friend and her tumor has been moved to specialists. She will see the thyroid specialist today.
Number One Son HAS enlisted-- managed to get all of the paper work sorted finally-- and took his Oath of Enlistment last week. He now has to complete his PAST test to qualify for the job he wants and I can't stand that his Dad isn't there to help him prepare.
He postponed his test (due today) because he wasn't making the numbers. The information he sent me:
Event My Number Required Minimum for _________
(without stopping)
200m swim. pff.. how far is 200m, anyway? no limit.
(30 min rest)
1.5 mile run 12:13.86 11:30.00
(10 min rest)
Push-ups in 2 mins 37 42
(2 min rest)
Chin-ups in 2 minutes 8 6
(2 min rest)
Sit-ups in 2 minutes 44 50
Hubby spent an hour on the phone coaching him in the most efficient ways to complete each task.
The other kids are getting to their activities and meeting obligations (barely) with a very distracted mother. I know that I have a glassy-eyed look and am responding semi-coherently in conversations, but they are clean, fed and have not been sent to school nekked yet.
The other day, on our 45 minute drive to the base, Miss Ky was chattering a mile-a-minute. I thought my head would explode. I started wishing that my head would explode.
I thought back to Son #3 and how easy it was to travel with him. He wasn't interested in conversing no matter how hard I tried. I realized now he's a lot like me. He likes quiet to think and ponder.
And as I was pondering that,
Ky bursts out with:
"I'm so happy Jesus made me, because we're (she and I) are BEST friends! I love you Mommy."
Me too sweetie, me too. Despite how my actions may argue otherwise.
A really tough time for you at the moment... have just been reading back over the last few posts... what a full time you are having. Glad that your little one has made you see the good things! When we are tearing around like mad things (as I do EVERY DAY) the stillness that a sweet comment like that brings is sweet indeed. Hope all goes well for your step dad and friend. Prayers going up now. xxx
ReplyDeleteSo much! Too much. I'm so sorry my friend. I can't imagine how hard it must be to be so far away when people you love need you. Be good to yourself. Don't worry about being distracted and "somewhere else". Kids fed and clean and going to school, naked or not, I'd say you're handling the biggies.
ReplyDeleteI'll pray things go well for your dad and your mom. I pray things work out for the best for #1 son as well. He's close, hopefully he'll get there.
Take care of yourself.
xoxo
Hoping your dad will be okay, and of course your mum. It must be hard for them and you.
ReplyDeleteCj xx
That's a lot to be dealing with. Best wishes for your dad and mom, hope the surgery goes well and his recovery is quick and easy.
ReplyDeleteYour son is so close to the numbers he needs to pass his tests. Good luck to him.
It really sounds like you need to take a mental health day off. Gotta take care of yourself too.
Prayers for you and all your loved ones, J. Great big hug to you and to that sweet little girl of yours also. I hope things go well for all those you are worrying over and that life settles down a bit for you soon.
ReplyDeleteOh my! That last one so makes up for it all. No?
ReplyDeleteI'm SO glad you had a girl. :)
ReplyDeleteLooks like your boy's numbers aren't bad. I'm glad he could postpone it, and that your sweetie can coach him, even if it's not in person.
Is someone near your parents who can take care of them? Do they have a church family you can alert?
LET ME KNOW WHEN YOU HEAD TO THE STATES!!!
I so hate it when my mother self is being pulled in a million directions and then my daughter self starts to get tugged on too. I am not very well equipped for that. When my Dad was sick last year--that is exactly how I felt too.
ReplyDeleteHang in there girlfriend--wish I had some really profound words of wisdom--but I got nothing--but I'll be hoping and praying in your general direction....
That's a lot on a Mom's plate.
ReplyDeleteI once kicked a hole in the wall in our house. My kindergarten twins were at the school, needing a ride home, and I couldn't find my car keys. Anywhere. The office called. My kids were safe but scared. My babies needed me and I couldn't GET THERE! I was so frustrated that I just started failing and made a big 'ole hole. Not being able to GET to a child who needs us is so dang hard! I am sorry you're being pulled this way. I wish you could all be there to manage it together too.
wow! you've got a lot on your plate near AND far.....i sure hope that you have others that you can count on since you can't be there for your folks. y'know i would rush on over and help if i were near to them...
ReplyDeletehugs to you and all you love...and i sure do love miss ky's comment...nothing like the simplicity of a little child to bring you back to earth for just a moment.
I was just thinking of you earlier today....now I know why we hadn't heard much lately.
ReplyDeleteI really hope all goes well for everyone. I hate having that distracted feeling and not being able to do all I feel or want to be doing.
I feel for you. Your life sounds very crazy right now. Hope your mom does well, your friend and your son kicks butt on the test. Those numbers are pretty tough to meet.
ReplyDeleteOh! What Ky said brought tears to my eyes! The sweetness of kids...at certain moments anyways. I hope all goes well with your parents and oldest son!
ReplyDeleteSo much going on! Just keep breathing and remembering that your kiddos love you and are sweeties!
ReplyDeleteI am sorry to hear about your many challenges. Our daughter is a non-stop talker/doer as well, and the Mrs. and I can relate to wishing for quieter kids.
ReplyDeleteOh Miss Ky. That makes me SOB. Oh man.
ReplyDeleteSo, so much on your plate right now. It is so hard to deal with that and be mom too.
Sending prayers and hugs and good thoughts your way (and for your father, mother, son and friend too).