November 16th 2007

Well I've abandoned my old blog since my husband chose to give out the link to HIS whole family and everyone else he met along the way. The blog was for ME to try to recapture a little of who I used to be, you know, the creative, happy-- did I say creative?--person who seems to have curled up and died these last couple of years.
I recently went back to the States to spend time with a friend. Unfortunately, between home schooling and working, she was a busy woman and I honestly feel like a phone conversation might have worked best for us. I emailed her when I got home to thank her for her time and her response was, "I think we're both at very a very low point in our lives". She then suggested we go white water rafting to snap out of it which I found very funny--not that the rafting is funny--I'd love to go, but I know it will never happen. She's the mother of EIGHT kids (ok, three have started their adult lives) and I have FIVE (we're building our own country), and we both have husbands that would be described by others as "wonderful, supportive men" (however we know they are sneakily controlling). Yeah, we're not going anywhere in this decade.
So, a low point. Which brings me to the heading of this blog site. I heard a quote last year by Oscar Wilde and it made me contemplate where my life was heading. The quote is "We are all in the gutter but some of us are looking at the stars".
Right now I just see the clouds and I'm out here desperately looking for the stars.